So woke up this morning and the sun was shining and a beautiful spring day. On Saturday my daughter and usually take a walk to the library and get some new books and then let our day unfold from there.
I bought my daughter a second hand bicycle the other day and thought it was about time I do because she is now 5 and I learnt to ride a bicycle without training wheels on when I was six. I remember the day clearly when my Dad took my wheels off and I had to learn to balance.
Anyway, so after going to the library my daughter asks if she can go and ride her bicycle to which I respond maybe. I saw our neighbour on the way back and asked her if she knew of anywhere where I could take her to ride her bicycle. She gave me a list of a few places and so I decided that we would go out and I would let my daughter ride her bike.
Immediately after I see where I was going to be going the thought pops into my head, I so wish my hubby was with us and could come with. I then feel an immense sadness come over me and think of how much nicer it would be to go out as a family. It one of those feelings that just eats a person's heart up.
With my brave face on I take my daughter bicycle out of the house and walk to the car with it. Just as I go to open up the boot of the car I see a feather. My mine immediately points put to me that my hubby is here with us and will be with us but not physically and rather just spiritually. It eased the pain a little but still emotional.
While walking around there were a ton of couples and families walking around and the sadness just took over again but I tried to stay as upbeat as possible for my daughters sake. She had fun and thoroughly enjoyed herself. Another day done and another day missing my dearest husband.